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My future

I question my life choices every day and wonder is it enough for me to be strong-willed and stubborn.

Money plays a large fact in everyday life and with me not being apart of the top 1%, I like everyone else has to work for a living.

Hmm, I am valued by how many hours I put in and how hard I slave away. Being a number in the system doesn’t sound fun to me.

Does anyone truly have a plan for the future? I’m spending thousands of dollar (or pounds) on a chance.

The possibility of a chance to be a writer or a PR agent. What a gamble.

*** Never drink people, this was in my drafts.

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Top five places I have to visit.

Okay, so this will more than likely change in the next 15 minutes but it’s worth a shot.

1: Cuba

I love the idea of going back in time but since that’s impossible I’ll settle for a country frozen in time. I want to see old cars and stand on the street that separates the rich from the poor. I want to eat outside and just take it all in.

 

2: Greece

Greece, Mykonos & Santorini, October 2018

This picture speaks for itself. I love water and countries surrounded by water make me so happy because I love the beach.

 

3: Morocco

Morocco, floatation, currency

I want a red house but a blue one will do as long as it close to the beach. I want to learn how to fish but I know that I don’t have that patience. Morocco is supposed to be cheap but at the same time have great quality in their products. So I want to shop and see a beach but at the meet new people.

 

4: South Korea

South Korea is a great place for an autumn holiday. There are plenty of spots to enjoy the fiery reds and oranges of fall, and have a taste of the country’s rich culture and tradition. This itinerary takes you in and around Seoul, then guides you to venture out into the countryside where you’ll see South Korea’s best spots for autumn.

They are known for their beauty, which is beyond me. I don’t know the first thing about makeup and wish I did but I have never been able to get the hang of it. Other than that, I want to sit outside and eat at one of those places that allows you to cook the meal.

 

5: Brazil

Honestly, this is because I want to see the difference between here and Cuba.

I want to go to a lot more countries but these are my top five, for now.

 

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Job

I finally got a job. After 6 weeks of being jobless and feeling depressed, I start tomorrow.

After working in a call center for 3 years and vowing to never work there again, I applied for call centers again and one said yes.

The only thing that could hinder this is me and my need to prioritize school over money. I know that I need money to go to school but I need school to stay.

Confusing, I know. The catch 22 is in full swing here but I’m excited and cant wait to make money so that I can eat properly and travel.

I need a weekend in Ireland making that will be my fifth country of the year and completing my New Year’s resolution.

Little bit of a view of what I found today. This place isn’t so boring as I originally thought, who knew.

Everyone, just not me.

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My life sucks.

In a previous post, I acknowledge that I feel like this move was a mistake but it feels like the mistake that keeps on giving.

My glasses broke, so for everyone that’s not 20/20, you know my pain. I ordered my replacement pair which it will take up to 14 days to get to me. Well, I woke up today with an email that says it was shipped to the wrong address.

I am blind! I can’t see a good foot in front of me. I like glasses and the fact that they allow me to see things.

Since I still have to go on interviews, work for the bulletin, complete assignments, copy lecture boards, and edit, so much editing. Glasses would be nice.

If it not one thing it’s another. I miss Smoking so much that it’s affecting the way I drink and the amount of time I spend doing bullshit.

Welcome to University, where your life will be thrown upside down with the expectancy that it will help you in the future years.

The educational system may be a scam and I fell extreme hard into reality.

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Outside Parliment

I spent a large amount of time during the day trying to get the perfect shot for my University assignment. This is what I got.

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The street was so busy but in a good way. The people weren’t very cooperative when asked for an interview but they were very sweet in wishing well with my project. The Supreme Court building was open to the public but served no real purpose to my trip.

There was a rather small group of people yelling at the parliament building regarding the Brexit discussion. I found them to be very aggressive but not overly aggressive that you forgot why they are there.

It was a beautiful trip and I go some of the assignment done. I hope for a more productive week but who knows.

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London trip 2.

I achieved my goal and got out of town.

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This is what I see when I’m leaving town, a whole lot of nothing. I take that back, there were sheep.

I took a bus, a train, and the subway to get to the Center of  London, it wasn’t bad and the commute was peaceful but I kept getting lost. I honestly need a travel guide to walk me in a straight line.

This trip was about seeing the nightlife but it was Tuesday and I didn’t factor in work life. So I ended up in a sports bar. This was the best part, especially since they had a cheap Hostel upstairs with a female only section.

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It was 2 for 1 from 5-7:30 Monday to Friday. The bartenders were very helpful and made sure you got your money’s worth.

Karaoke was a big hit and disaster at the same time. By this point, I was super drunk and knew that staying would be the death of my bank account.

That night was beautiful though.

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I was trapped.

I had planned a nice trip to London for Friday and Saturday but you know what I couldn’t leave my small Buckingham town. The fair had closed down the center of the town for 48 hours, which turned out to mean that the bus would skip the town completely.

I’m not sure about everywhere else but in Tulsa, Oklahoma, the fair affects two things, traffic, and your attitude when you have to pay 20 dollars for parking.

Not only did the bus not come but every cab and taxi were either not picking up or their line was busy. There is no Uber in Buckingham! Like where have I landed where Uber is not a thing.

But alls cool that ends cool, I saved a ton of money by staying in my small room that they call a dorm room. However, I did get out to see what this 15 hour fair was all about.

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It was cute, the kids had fun and almost everyone in the town seemed to be out and about. Walking through the crown I could hear parents trying to keep up with their kids and kids moving as fast as they can to make it in time for the ride.

Although not my scene, I give it a 4.5 out of 5 for the fairness of the games. They were yelling the same thing no matter where you went, “EVERYONE’S A WINNER”, which turned out to be true.

I didn’t stay for the fair because I was going to what turned out to be a beautiful concert on the outskirts of town in this little bar. A very talented singer named Gemma Doyle performed and I believe that woman gave her soul to angels in exchange for her voice. It was amazing.

The crown was very happy to have her there and she also sang happy birthday to one of the members of the staff. She is a survivor of a terminal illness and found that singing was the one thing that lifted her spirits while she was fighting.

She was the sweetest person and was a lovely end to the day.

Even those I wasn’t able to go to London it was still a nice time and I didn’t have to travel far. But I’m trying again for London this week, I need to get out of here. 🙂

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