Adjustment, anxiety, Budget, Cheap, Education, England, Loneliness, Planning, Student, Travel

Life without money

As much as I would like to be dripping in C notes, I’m not.

But heres the thing, I dont have expensive taste. I live paycheck to paycheck and it’s fine because i shop on the cheap always.

However, my addiction to traveling has left me wanting that lavish lifestyle. It’s forcing my mind to panic and like for money every where I turn.

I see now why people become strippers to fund school and if I was in shape I’d do it as well. But I’d also be terrible at it because I can’t dance.

Like at all. It’s a shame.

The need for a second job is pulling my down and making life hard.

Like every other self funded college student I must learn to push through.

Life has changed and I must adapt and change with it to survive.

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anxiety, Depressed, Education, England, Feeling sorry, Mistake, Moving, Planning, Uncategorized

My future

I question my life choices every day and wonder is it enough for me to be strong-willed and stubborn.

Money plays a large fact in everyday life and with me not being apart of the top 1%, I like everyone else has to work for a living.

Hmm, I am valued by how many hours I put in and how hard I slave away. Being a number in the system doesn’t sound fun to me.

Does anyone truly have a plan for the future? I’m spending thousands of dollar (or pounds) on a chance.

The possibility of a chance to be a writer or a PR agent. What a gamble.

*** Never drink people, this was in my drafts.

anxiety, Depressed, Education, Feeling sorry, Loneliness, Student

Anxiety Attack

I had a massive anxiety attack during an interview.

So if you don’t know, I’m in college studying journalism. Yay! However, it’s crazy hard and I’ve been struggling to keep up.

The professor says that I’m taking it to serious and that I’m not doing awful.

Apparently, my mind and body are not in agreement with him.

But I was out following a story and just walked into this man’s shop. Sweet man and he had no problem letting me interview him.

I have been told that I talk to much and need to let the person speak. Well I spoke during the interview and that completely screwed me.

I got a hot flash and my ears started to ring, I got lightheaded and could hear my heartbeat in my ear.

The stress, thought and fear of failure is trying to kill me.

I stood there and let this mental attack go on because I needed this shot. This interview was so needed that I would have given up without it.

University is so stressful and I didn’t realize how much my body was suffering.

It was definitely a kick in the ass.