Adjustment, Buckingham, Education, England, Feeling sorry, Loneliness, Mistake, Student, Travel, Tulsa, Uncategorized, Weed

My life sucks.

In a previous post, I acknowledge that I feel like this move was a mistake but it feels like the mistake that keeps on giving.

My glasses broke, so for everyone that’s not 20/20, you know my pain. I ordered my replacement pair which it will take up to 14 days to get to me. Well, I woke up today with an email that says it was shipped to the wrong address.

I am blind! I can’t see a good foot in front of me. I like glasses and the fact that they allow me to see things.

Since I still have to go on interviews, work for the bulletin, complete assignments, copy lecture boards, and edit, so much editing. Glasses would be nice.

If it not one thing it’s another. I miss Smoking so much that it’s affecting the way I drink and the amount of time I spend doing bullshit.

Welcome to University, where your life will be thrown upside down with the expectancy that it will help you in the future years.

The educational system may be a scam and I fell extreme hard into reality.

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Outside Parliment

I spent a large amount of time during the day trying to get the perfect shot for my University assignment. This is what I got.

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The street was so busy but in a good way. The people weren’t very cooperative when asked for an interview but they were very sweet in wishing well with my project. The Supreme Court building was open to the public but served no real purpose to my trip.

There was a rather small group of people yelling at the parliament building regarding the Brexit discussion. I found them to be very aggressive but not overly aggressive that you forgot why they are there.

It was a beautiful trip and I go some of the assignment done. I hope for a more productive week but who knows.

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London trip 2.

I achieved my goal and got out of town.

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This is what I see when I’m leaving town, a whole lot of nothing. I take that back, there were sheep.

I took a bus, a train, and the subway to get to the Center of  London, it wasn’t bad and the commute was peaceful but I kept getting lost. I honestly need a travel guide to walk me in a straight line.

This trip was about seeing the nightlife but it was Tuesday and I didn’t factor in work life. So I ended up in a sports bar. This was the best part, especially since they had a cheap Hostel upstairs with a female only section.

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It was 2 for 1 from 5-7:30 Monday to Friday. The bartenders were very helpful and made sure you got your money’s worth.

Karaoke was a big hit and disaster at the same time. By this point, I was super drunk and knew that staying would be the death of my bank account.

That night was beautiful though.

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I was trapped.

I had planned a nice trip to London for Friday and Saturday but you know what I couldn’t leave my small Buckingham town. The fair had closed down the center of the town for 48 hours, which turned out to mean that the bus would skip the town completely.

I’m not sure about everywhere else but in Tulsa, Oklahoma, the fair affects two things, traffic, and your attitude when you have to pay 20 dollars for parking.

Not only did the bus not come but every cab and taxi were either not picking up or their line was busy. There is no Uber in Buckingham! Like where have I landed where Uber is not a thing.

But alls cool that ends cool, I saved a ton of money by staying in my small room that they call a dorm room. However, I did get out to see what this 15 hour fair was all about.

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It was cute, the kids had fun and almost everyone in the town seemed to be out and about. Walking through the crown I could hear parents trying to keep up with their kids and kids moving as fast as they can to make it in time for the ride.

Although not my scene, I give it a 4.5 out of 5 for the fairness of the games. They were yelling the same thing no matter where you went, “EVERYONE’S A WINNER”, which turned out to be true.

I didn’t stay for the fair because I was going to what turned out to be a beautiful concert on the outskirts of town in this little bar. A very talented singer named Gemma Doyle performed and I believe that woman gave her soul to angels in exchange for her voice. It was amazing.

The crown was very happy to have her there and she also sang happy birthday to one of the members of the staff. She is a survivor of a terminal illness and found that singing was the one thing that lifted her spirits while she was fighting.

She was the sweetest person and was a lovely end to the day.

Even those I wasn’t able to go to London it was still a nice time and I didn’t have to travel far. But I’m trying again for London this week, I need to get out of here. 🙂

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London

So on the way to and from Amsterdam, I spent time in London. Four days in a free hotel, let’s please keep in mind that I’m still stupid broke, like life on a budget would have been a dream. With that in mind, I still have to travel, staying still is not my thing.

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On Travel day, I got super high off of a weed pen, which Amsterdam does not have. But I was so nervous because going back home to Oklahoma is not an option and neither is failure, so the clouds are where I needed to be.

The flight was 13 hours with a 3.5 hour layover in the ATL. For those who care, the Pokemon Go game is cutthroat in that airport. Team blue beat me like I steal something multiple times, just saying. But I, of course, made it to London safely.

Seconds after checking into the FREE hotel, yes free, I was out the door searching for something to do. Something free would have been nice but who am I kidding. I wondered around central London for over an hour lost like a puppy before I found a book event going on.

People, please don’t judge, but where there are books there is wine and snacks. So I let myself in. On the third floor, the book reading had begun and on the fourth wine was already set up. One thing I learned when being cheap was to always read something about the event you crash, just in case, the wait staff is paid to care. Mine weren’t!

Unfortunately, Weed is not legal in London, however, London is such a mind your own business city that a man rolled up in the seat next to me and no one was surprised or cared. I had to clap because that subway was jerking around like crazy and he ain’t drop a thing. PURE talent.

Those four days were super hard because I was still trying to get used to the six-hour time difference which made it hard to wake up before noon.

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The one thing I didn’t have a hard time finding was China town!

To be honest, I got lost again and decide to follow this group of old Asian ladies they took me right to where I needed to be. After a day of China town, I really wanted to visit one of those Korean places where you get to cook the food for yourself and drink beer. I didn’t find it, so I settled on Chinese ribs and a mountain of rice, which I gave the leftovers to a picky homeless woman who doesn’t like chicken.

I feel like the jetlag and the time change messed me up so bad that I didn’t get to fully enjoy the city. Thinking about going back this weekend and taking in the nightlife but after that, I’m not sure if I should plan for Toronto or Demark. With me keeping in mind that I’m a broke, jobless, college student, both of them sound good as long as I end up back in Amsterdam.

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I visited Amsterdam

I want to go to Berlin, but my Grandmother was afraid and told me to go to the Netherlands. Well, I’m not gonna argue with Smoking week all day with the friendliest people.

This was the view from the airplane and I am in love already. I tend to go to places where water is close, I’m not sure if it’s my love of the ocean or the easy escape route but I can’t help it.

The customs process was peaceful and quick, the only thing that got me was that I couldn’t find a way out of the airport. This really doesn’t say anything about the airport, since I can’t follow the directions of a straight line, it was just one of my struggles.

The three things that I had to keep in mind when planning this trip was that I’m broke, School starts in a week and that I’m a broke college student. That’s life, so everything was done on the cheap.

For accommodations, I chose a hostel near the center of the city. For 6 nights, I spent less than $200.00, which is amazing, however, there was no elevator. The building had 4 stories and I was on the top floor. I hauled two large size suitcases up 3 flights of stairs only to turn around only to meet a room full of men.

The room was a mixed dorm, which is often times the cheapest. I smiled at everyone in the room and got stuck with the top bunk. They were nice and let me know ahead of time that they were about to party hard and drink all night. I was cool with that but I didn’t know at the time that they were professional partiers.

Leaving everything in the room, I head back down the stairs and out the door.

For the next 6 days, I woke up late, smoked weed all days, had every edible I could get my hands on and I loved it. The weather as on and off but none of that changed the people’s moods nor mine. I loved the peaceful cloud that the weed or the environment had me in.

Walking around the city lost for hours was the best thing, sitting by the water watching the boats go by had me in a trance. I was truly content was my life and then leaving day happened. Back to England, I go.

But oh the memories.

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I Made a Mistake

I left my family, friends, job, everything I knew for a dream and the perfect school for that dream. Every morning I wake up and I ask myself is this what I wanted?

I’m 25, which isn’t old to me but is to this school causing me to stick out like a sore thumb. I don’t belong here and I see that, not just on my face in the mirror but on the face of others. Big school in a little town, surrounded by older people and me, that one struggling to survive American.

I think I made a mistake.

My personality doesn’t belong here. The class is different to the point where I want to cry and have because I’m just not getting it. The words, “Don’t cry in front of people”, plays on a loop inside my head.

Why do you other people feel? Do they have the support of family, are they drowning like me?

I moved to Buckingham for school and it’s just me. I don’t have family support or funding, like others, nor will my proud allow me to ask for it.

What did I do?