I am a firm believer that you should never die in the same place you were born. Life brought you here why not let it take you somewhere else? In all honesty, I feel trapped. Trapped in a job where people fight to be seen while at the same time they cry because it’s too hard. I’m stuck in an endless cycle of nothingness, seeing other people fight for a spot they truly don’t want makes me worry about what’s left of me. I question if this is real life or just my life. What do others see as they walk amongst their peers? Do they question their existence as I do? If so, what are the answers? Please tell me.
I have been in the same place for 5 years, just going through the motions. Begging for someone to see me and understand that this hole is getting darker as the day goes on. I sit silently and fake the smile that everyone sees, give a laugh at what should be funny, and then go home to cry into a bottle of tequila till I pass out. The next day, I’d wake up and do it again. Endless cycle with no peace in sight. So, it’s time for a change! I want this year to welcome me into a new chapter of my life, hopefully, a happier chapter. I promised myself that I would get out and do better, I want to visit five countries this year. In an attempt to get to the point where I see an adventure and not the gloom that floats above me. This journey is to save me.
Live life, be free-spirited and achieve happiness. Athena